bad girls do it well Cristy, 23, New York City. Hong Kong-Chinese American womanist. Cis girl, she/her/hers.
This blog is a collection of the personal, the pretty, and the sociopolitical.
Trigger warning for rape/sexual assault, trans/misogyny, racism, and anti-Blackness.
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One of the great myths of the school system is that we tell people that everyone should learn exactly the same thing and exactly the same way, at roughly exactly the same speed. And that’s just not true. People learn in different ways, at different speeds, at different times. And so hacking your education allows you to learn what, when, how and where you want.

Dale J. Stephens, author of Hacking Your Education and founder of

via NPR

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That standard notion is white and ableist as fuck.

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True. I guess I learned a few trivial things in my North American school daze but I always learned incomparably more outside of school. And it for me it goes beyond the methods and speed and timing of the teaching. It’s the overarching situation of learning obedience and submission to arbitrary authority, and it’s the structure of the content itself, of blowing up 5% of world history (i.e. white history!) and erasing or whitewashing 95% of humanity’s great story, justifying a backwards world order, whitesplaining genocide and slavery and war and colonialism and corporate-military domination and imperialism and the ongoing shape and tilt of a profoundly unjust global politics, elevating the importance of certain mechanistic skills over the journey to become fully human, elevating the importance of certain intellectual sleights of hand over the quest to cultivate a wise heart. As I see it, in life it’s my job (or you might say, each of our jobs) to design and execute my own curriculum of learning and growth, never to accept the structure of a curriculum which comes from a system which is inarguably hostile to my vision of the world.

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"mental illness" is a tool for situating violence outside of structural power. as long as this is true violence will always be attributed to mental illness and root causes of violence will by definition not be pathologized. when you say that x structural power should be considered an illness, you are ignoring the ways in which "health" and "illness" are constructed by those in positions of structural power, and excusing institutional violence as an individual phenomenon

that is to say, the archetypal psycho is necessary grease for the wheels of liberal politics

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That’s invading her rights as a person to decide whether or not she wants to get it done or not.

Mother wants answers after teenage daughter’s armpits were shaved by teacher

A fourteen year-old girl has her armpits forcibly shaved by a teacher, in front of other students. The teacher and school district defend it because the girl is developmentally disabled and needs to learn “independent living skills” (otherwise known, in this case, as why you must submit to gendered social norms at all times).

And the justification is that the girl would be made fun of if she didn’t do it? Maybe you should change the behavior of the kids that are the bullies, not the kids being bullied. Because even if you forcibly shave her armpits, she’s still noticeably disabled, and that (in her case) can’t be hidden/normalized quite so easily.

The message being sent here - and in so many of these programs - is “You’re being teased because you’re different, so try to be the same!” Rather than seeing the value in human difference and diversity.

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What oh my god. If this was my kid I would be creating a fucking shitstorm over this.

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I mean as long as we’re talking about Queer desirability let’s be real as fuck and talk about what this shit actually looks like. To be seen as desirable you must fit the following criteria:

  • Must be white, light skinned POC will due in a pinch but will always get trumped by all mighty whitey
  • Must be Cis, if trans you must be AFAB trans masculine
  • If you’re a cis woman then you must be butch, if you’re a man cis or trans you must be masculine. same with AFAB non-binary people. Trans women/DMAB non-binary folks need not even apply.
  • CANNOT be fat, if fat only slightly chunky/chunky and maybe you’ll get thrown a bone or two at some point.
  • Must be neurotypical and able bodied, no exceptions.

And this is just the shit I can think of off the top of my head.

And I WISH I was exaggerating about all of this but I’ve seen it play out too many times already -_-

I think also in talking about desirability you have to address the strategies that non-desirable people have to create in order to snag a bone. You have to pretend you’re not crazy, you have to pretend you’re butch, you gotta play up your ‘exotic’ features, downplay your accents (unless the accent is desirable.) 

And all this to gain enough social capital in order to get someone who would dismiss you otherwise, to like you.

Can we also discuss how people with that desirability, with that social capital, will use fetisihization to claim equality in terms of desirability and at the same time will cite that fetishization as  ”unnecessary diversity” that is  ”dividing us”.

Not to mention if we was undesirables get someone to like us/pay us heed suddenly we are a detriment and making a bad name for queers or that other person stands to lose social capital because they stooped that low.

Newser: N. Carolina Will Pay $10M to Forced Sterilization Victims





Over a period of 45 years, North Carolina forcibly sterilized 7,600 people it deemed mentally or socially unfit. Now, 39 years since the state’s eugenics program ended in 1974, it will finally make reparations, with lawmakers earmarking $10…





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Astaire (his therapist) said (the shooter) had not been diagnosed with Asperger’s but the family suspected he was on the spectrum, and had been in therapy for years. He said he knew of no other mental illnesses, but (the shooter) truly had no friends, as he said in his videos and writings.

Can you fuckers stop with the ableism now?!?!?!? 

He’d been in therapy for years and never been diagnosed with a single mental illness or condition. 

He was not mentally ill. 

He was a self entitled misogynist. 

That is all. 


I have no friends and I am autistic and mentally ill, and I don’t go fucking killing people. Stop blaming this on mental illness or autism!

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His family might have thought he was on the spectrum because of all the negative stereotypes of what autism is. Self/peer-diagnosis is valid, but only if for the right reasons…

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(trigger warning: pills, suicide) Fuck medication shame.


If a pill can make me not suicidal, I’m going to take it.

I give no fucks about being your stereotypical weak mentally ill person who is dependent on the evil pharmaceutical industry to live. I am far more concerned with being happy about the fact that I can take a pill every morning that makes it possible for me to be alive. Without working meds I can’t go to school. I can’t have a job. I can’t interact with people. I can’t feed myself, I can’t clean up after myself, I can’t take care of myself at all. Without working meds I am so exhausted and in so much pain and so depressed and anxious that I can’t leave my apartment. I can’t leave my room. I can’t get out of bed. 

How dare anyone shame me for using a pill that fixes these problems when no other option has ever worked?

How on earth can anyone try to argue to me that taking a pill every morning that makes me functional is a worse fate than debilitating depression and anxiety? That being on pills for the rest of my life is somehow worse than killing myself at 20 years old?

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Sure, movements can be healing. But are they? Many, many broke folks, parents and/or disabled folks who have been forced out of movements would say no. What disability justice and healing justice talks about—and asks—is, are they really? Or are they set up in burnout models that destroy folks’s physical and spiritual health? And I think that a big part of what movements that I’m part of do to *make movements* that aren’t shitty, is to center disabled, working-class and poor, parenting, and femme of color genius. Burnout isn’t just about not having a deep enough analysis. It’s about movements that are deeply ableist and inaccessible.
Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, “for badass disability justice, working-class and poor lead models of sustainable hustling for liberation” (via ethiopienne)

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Mental illness is casually and readily used as a metaphor for evil or bizarre behaviour, it’s treated as the root cause for any kind of social deviance, and it’s feared and hated across society. Numerous people express an unwillingness to date, work with, or socialise around mentally ill people, perhaps fearing that mental illness is contagious or that they’ll be viciously attacked while innocently compiling spreadsheets or dining out with friends.

At the same time that society hates mental illness, though, it’s surprisingly vocal when it comes to the use of psychiatric medications and therapy to manage mental illness. Taking pills makes you ‘weak’ and not able to ‘just handle it,’ while therapy is useless and suspect, something that people are only brainwashed into thinking is useful. People who pay to talk to someone for an hour (or more) a week are clearly, well, you know. Crazy, and the entire mental health profession is obviously raking it in by deceiving all these people with their silly notions of ‘treatment’ and ‘management.’

The disdainful attitude when it comes to managing mental illness is at utter odds with social attitudes about mental illness. If crazy people are so awful, if we’re told that it’s ‘okay to be crazy so long as you act sane in public,’ how are we supposed to be less crazy if we can’t actually get any treatment? This paradoxical attitude is widely in force in society and people don’t seem to realise how absurd it is; if they think that, for example, schizophrenia is a scary and dangerous disease that turns people into monsters, uh, wouldn’t they want people with schizophrenia to be able to access whichever treatments help them manage their mental health condition most effectively?

Mental Illness, Medication, and Social Attitudes – this ain’t livin’ (via brutereason)

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it’s pretty common for people discussing rape culture within feminist discourse to conveniently leave out disabled girls, but this is just a casual reminder that disabled women are far more likely to be sexually assaulted, abused or raped than able-bodied women. on top of that, 50% of deaf girls and 54% of deaf boys have been sexually abused or assaulted. so please stop leaving us out of your discussion about rape culture.

It seems to me that on one page I recognized a portion of an old diary of mine which mysteriously disappeared shortly after my marriage, and, also, scraps of letters which, though considerably edited, sound to me vaguely familiar. In fact, Mr. Fitzgerald (I believe that is how he spells his name) seems to believe that plagiarism begins at home.

Zelda Fitzgerald, in a review of her husband’s book in 1922 (via trishahaddad)

Reminder that F. Scott Fitzgerald stole his wife’s writing, many times, while suppressing her works. See “Save Me the Waltz”, which he forced her to revise so that he could use parts of it in his own book “Tender Is the Night”. And which author do we study in school?

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I didn’t know this.

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He also encouraged her to have affairs so he could use that for inspiration, and when she wanted to leave him for a man she fell in love with, he locked her in their house and wouldn’t let her leave.

When she wanted to publish “Save me the Waltz,” Fitzgerald wrote in his diary about DELIBERATELY trying to TRIGGER her schizophrenic episodes and making her incapable of fighting that battle.

And Fitzgerald scholars KNOW all this.  They write articles about how it was all okay because in the end, it inspired Fitzgerald to write Great Literature.

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knife his corpse

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Fuck I didn’t know this fuck ugh god why fuck ugh

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Yep. All true. Learned about his trifling ass studying creative writing and English lit. at CSU. Didn’t read ONE of her books on high school, yet we’re taught how amazing and talented he was. Makes me sick. xBx

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Um. I thought it was common knowledge that he was an asshole?

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I knew he was an asshole, but not that bad….

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Before Depo was approved in 1992, it was routinely used on Native women by IHS, particularly on Native women with disabilities. According to one area director Burton Attico, the Phoenix IHS had already begun to substitute Depo for sterilization on patients with mental disabilities in the 1980s because by then sterilization had been prohibited. Said Attico, “we used it to stop their periods. There is nothing else that will do it. To have to change a pad on someone developmentally disabled, you’ve got major problems. The fact that they become infertile while on it is a side benefit.” Raymond Jannett of the Phoenix IHS suggested that Depo-Provera aided young women in dealing with PMS-like symptoms. “Depo-Provery turned them back into their sweet, poor, handicapped selves. I take some pride in being a pioneer in that regard,” he said. But, while Jannett did not have any reservations about using it on Indian women, he did not plan to use it “on attractive 16-yer-old girls who one day hope to be mothers.” Patrick Gideon, with the IHS in Oklahoma City, said it would be appropriate to prescribe the drug to “women who are unable to care for themselves. For hygienic reasons, we will go ahead and give it.” Apparently, keeping Native women “clean” by sterilizing them is more important than protecting Native women’s health; in this way, Native women’s bodies are viewed as inherently dirty, in need fo cleansing and purification at any cost.

Andrea Smith, Conquest: Sexual Violence and American Indian Genocide

The intersection of racism and ableism …

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read so much andrea smith when i was researching forced sterilization of native women my sophomore year … highly recommended reading

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14 Disturbing Stats About Racial Inequality in American Public Schools


From the Department of Education:

  1. Black students accounted for 18 percent of the country’s pre-K enrollment, but made up 48 percent of preschoolers with multiple out-of-school suspensions.
  2. Black students were expelled at three times the rate of white students.
  3. American Indian and Native-Alaskan students represented less than 1 percent of students, but 3 percent of expulsions.
  4. Black girls were suspended at higher rates than all other girls and most boys.
  5. American Indian and Native-Alaskan girls were suspended at higher rates than white boys or girls.
  6. Nearly one in four boys of color, excepting Latino and Asian American students, with disabilities received an out-of-school suspension.
  7. One in five girls of color with disabilities received an out-of-school suspension.
  8. A quarter of the schools with the highest percentage of black and Latino students did not offer Algebra II.
  9. A third of these schools did not offer chemistry.
  10. Less than half of American Indian and Native-Alaskan high school students had access to the full range of math and science courses, which consists of Algebra I, Geometry, Algebra II, calculus, biology, chemistry and physics.
  11. Black and Latino students accounted for 40 percent of enrollment at schools with gifted programs, but only represented 26 percent of students in such programs.
  12. Black, Latino and Native American students attended schools with higher concentrations of first-year teachers (3 to 4 percent) than white students (1 percent).
  13. Black students were more than three times as likely to attend schools where fewer than 60 percent of teachers meet all state certification and licensure requirements.
  14. Latino students were twice as likely to attend such schools.

(h/t The Nation)

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Why You Shouldn't Share Those Emotional 'Deaf Person Hears for the First Time' Videos


I admit it: I’m a total sucker for “inspirational” viral videos that pop up on Facebook and Twitter, especially if there are bunnies involved. But there’s one video I’m completely sick of seeing and will be happy to never see again – ones where deaf people are able to hear for the first time.

One of the latest made the rounds today, featuring 40-year-old Joanne Milne of Gateshead, U.K., who was born with Usher Syndrome, a rare genetic disease that affects hearing and vision. News outlets all over the world shared the YouTube video of Milne weeping with joy as she discovered her hearing for the first time, but few looked past the highly emotional moment to explore the scientific explanation behind it, or to explore the question what it’s truly like to be deaf.

I’m a CODA – Child of Deaf Adults – and involved in the Deaf activist community. [Note: writing Deaf with a capital D separates people who can’t hear from people who consider deafness a major part of their cultural and political identity.] So usually I’m thrilled when people read an article about people in the Deaf community or see a cool video in American Sign Language and think to send it to me. It means that I’m making a difference, however small, in helping to educate people about the Deaf community. However, the “deaf person hears for the first time” videos don’t make me smile. They make me want to throw my computer out a window.

More at the link. The title is a link.

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If someone doesn’t “seem” disabled to you, maybe it’s because they’ve been forced to develop a huge and complex system of coping mechanisms in order to try and survive in an ableist world. It’s probably that.

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